My Stupidity

I am going nuts. This is not me. Don't know why I am falling for a near perfect image of someone, that I created in my own mind. I don't even know her quite well. I don't know if this is something divine or perhaps a just Stupid crush.

On the positive side, this stupid crush made me an amateur poet, a self-proclaimed portrait sketch maker and an avid listener of Sufi music. Whatever this is, it is bringing my creative side out. She inspires me a lot, unknowingly, which is the best part.

So here goes a small verse that I wrote while thinking about her. I wish I could also document those few bits and pieces of her sketches here, but I am too lazy and conservative to get them scanned.

Oh Girl, I am Lost

I let myself fall for you, didn't know where to stop

The abyss is much deeper than I thought

I can only spot Love near the abyss' horizon.

Had a halt there when I started from square one.

It was full of beautiful people

I asked my folks there - Have you seen my girl?

they blessed a smile on me and said - Yes,

she was here a long time ago, then took a birle!

[birle means walk away]

I let myself fall for you, didn't know where to stop

The abyss is much deeper than I thought

I crossed a place called faith some time ago.

It was quiet with an incandescent glow

Every thought was happy & content

I asked goodness if she has seen her!

she said there was a girl who she didn’t let stay

She was more beautiful than her!

I let myself fall for you, did not know where to stop

The abyss is much deeper than I thought

I passed Heaven during my fall

It was full of luxuries, big and small

I asked childhood if he can help in my search

he said she was playing with him lately

games in which she won many hearts

and for a unknown call she left us oddly

I let myself fall for you, did not know where to stop

The abyss is much deeper than I thought

Before reaching here I met my God,

I asked him - where should I plod!

He lured me to end all my miseries

in return of what he wanted my soul

I said it belongs to someone else,

help me if you can or otherwise I stroll !

I let myself fall for you, did not know where to stop

The abyss is much deeper than I thought

Ohh Girl, I know you will come and hold me

before I further fall.

Possible Interpretation(brief):

This poem is about a journey of my fall which also lead me into self-exploration.

I keep on falling for her, I reached love which she has already surpassed long time ago. I fell further to search her in my faith but didn't find her there. She is already imbibed much deeper in me. I fell further to reach my heaven, still she is not there. Then I met my god, but he is no good replacement of her.